November 6th blog post… I wrote, “Be back soon’. In the great scheme of things, almost 8 months later is truly an inconsequential spit in the ocean. Well. a spit as far as transformational journeying goes.
Not unsurprising…
Like a harvested field, I’ve been burning off arrogance, omnipotence and other dark side smack side hell side personality crap! I hear me judging myself for swearing in public… But crap doesn’t get used as a fertiliser for no good reason. It’s fecund with possibilities and creation. And, it’s my experience that always, but always, when I work with my crap what’s even more challenging emerges… something of the best and most noble in me.
Whatever you do, don’t give me what’s best and noble in me!!! Haven’t I done enough, Universe? How the hell am I going to serve and live up to this one?
If you’re a traveller of journeys yourself, these sentiments will not be unknown to you. I/they burn with a passion of profound inverse humility! How dare I think I’m not up to the job when it’s been assigned to me in the certain knowledge that I am?
I’m crying profusely now… vulnerable and red skin raw. My offerings feel like my very blood and guts… these things I was born to do… and I struggle without adequate vocabulary to describe them. And I struggle with putting my head above the parapet. Yet I’m aflame with visions.
Pictures of how you and I and the whole of humanity could live in I/thou relationship. Images of how our everyday lives at work and at home could be fantastically transformed with qualities of love and grace. How you and I could truly operate from not my will but thy will be done… and, paradoxically, the immense and joyful freedom that brings.
If I was passionate before… I now carry my own personal incinerator in which I become consumed and rise again. Purpose, passion and power has nothing on this! It’s beyond beyond.
And, through this process, I’ve been inspired to create ‘Unlocking The Power Of YOU!’ teleseminars and programme … This is where I re-begin, where I start anew offering of myself all that I understand and experience to be profoundly true. All that burns unquenchingly in my heart and soul.
And… having put my head above the parapet… when will you?